Our spring is coming

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They are telling us that we’ll be here until spring.  Who would have thought that we’d be here, in this place, longer than we would be home in the time span of a  year?  It could end up being a total of 8 or 9 months.

They tell us we’ll be living a “new normal.”

There isn’t anything normal about this.  Cancer isn’t normal.  We weren’t created for it.  God has given us life.  So we fight for that precious gift daily.

Jesus wept at Lazarus’ grave.  He weeps with us too.  Our sorrow becomes His sorrow.

The truth is this world is fallen.  We were created for life~for right here forever~but it was stolen away from us.  Now we live with glimpses of paradise but this world isn’t paradise.

Part of the fall brought with it sickness and disease.  It has affected Bob.  He is fighting for his life and until the Lord tells him to quit fighting here~and welcomes him into his eternal home~he fights on and I fight alongside of him, because life is a gift!

God has a plan in all of this and it’s unfolding.

Summer, Fall, Winter…  The seasons changed.  And so have we.

It has brought us back to a vulnerable childlike place.  But isn’t that exactly where God wants us?

We don’t experience His presence unless we are humble, vulnerable, like little children crying out to a parent.  And what good parent ignores a child?  And what good papa doesn’t quiet the cries of his children?  Abba, our papa cares.  He’s a good Father.

Bob and I have a question that we ask each other often.  That question is…  “Is it time to lament?”

You see one night when things looked bleak, when we didn’t think we could go another step and we were tired of being strong, I said, “Christians have lost the art of lamenting.  We need to lament.  It’s not an option.  It’s a necessity.”

So lament we did.  Lying in bed we cried, cried out to God, not with fancy words or prayers.  No, just with the truth of how we were feeling.  And you know what?  We fell asleep in the arms of God.  And the next day brought peace and answered prayer.

We are looking forward to the end of this storm, this winter that we are in.  We are looking forward to seeing all the signs of spring and new life…The crocus’ poking up from beneath the snow, the sun shining brighter, the patches of snow disappearing and the grass greening.

We are looking forward to spring with the hope of being home where we can live out what the medical staff is calling our “new normal.”

Blessings,

Nancy

(Transplant day is Wednesday, January 13, 2016.  Scott’s bone marrow will be harvested that morning and Bob will receive the infusion that afternoon.  Thank you, our friends, who have been so faithful in prayer.  We love and appreciate each one of you.)

15 thoughts on “Our spring is coming

  1. Dear Friends, It has been such a long, difficult time for you two and our hearts, love and prayers continue for you…sometimes that seems like not nearly enough…we want to do more for you..make this easier for you…fix it for you. yet we know nothing is impossible with God….”My grace is all you need. My power works best in your weakness.” 2 cor.12:9-10. Your spring is coming and with it will be new life…in Bob and in your home. Love you two. Praying always and most especially tomorrow…all day. xoxo

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    1. Thank you so much, Bonnie! In our crying out is how we receive God’s grace and mercy. In our weakness, He is strong. We could never do this alone, in our own strength, or without the prayers of good friends like you. We are more than grateful.

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    1. Thank you!! Your blog name just struck me. “Waiting for my miracle” That’s what we’re doing…waiting for our miracle!! With prayers from so many faithful people like you, it will happen. Blessings friend!

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  2. Nancy, your post simply speaks truth. There is great value in lamenting and in putting what’s in your heart into words – value to you and to your readers. I’m glad to know that Wednesday is transplant day, and I will pray for all involved. Spring will be fabulous!

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    1. Oh, thank you so much, Judy! Yes, we’re counting on spring being fabulous. Your words of encouragement and your prayers mean a lot to me right now.

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  3. Thank you for this update, dear Nancy. Still praying. Praying for peace, healing and the power to keep moving forward. Yes, I think God wants us to tell Him everything–laments, praise, tears–the whole truth of who we are. And besides, He already knows, and He wants to love on us. Hugs.
    Blessings & prayers ~ Wendy

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    1. Wendy, I need that prayer of power to keep moving! Being Bob’s caregiver has a set of unique hurdles to jump. It’s 4 days past transplant and Bob is doing well but very weak. Keeping him infection free while his blood counts recover, is the challenge for the next couple of weeks. Immunosuppressant drugs begin tomorrow. Our son, Scott, is sore but recovering well. Thank you so much for your prayers!! 💗

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    1. On the day you wrote this comment, Jane, my husband was being released from the hospital. It’s been hard to find the time to visit wordpress lately. I’m taking care of Bob as he receives out patient treatment now. I did just post a new blog though and will try to keep updates coming. Thank you so much for thinking of us. You don’t know how much this means to me right now!

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