They are telling us that we’ll be here until spring. Who would have thought that we’d be here, in this place, longer than we would be home in the time span of a year? It could end up being a total of 8 or 9 months.
They tell us we’ll be living a “new normal.”
There isn’t anything normal about this. Cancer isn’t normal. We weren’t created for it. God has given us life. So we fight for that precious gift daily.
Jesus wept at Lazarus’ grave. He weeps with us too. Our sorrow becomes His sorrow.
The truth is this world is fallen. We were created for life~for right here forever~but it was stolen away from us. Now we live with glimpses of paradise but this world isn’t paradise.
Part of the fall brought with it sickness and disease. It has affected Bob. He is fighting for his life and until the Lord tells him to quit fighting here~and welcomes him into his eternal home~he fights on and I fight alongside of him, because life is a gift!
God has a plan in all of this and it’s unfolding.
Summer, Fall, Winter… The seasons changed. And so have we.
It has brought us back to a vulnerable childlike place. But isn’t that exactly where God wants us?
We don’t experience His presence unless we are humble, vulnerable, like little children crying out to a parent. And what good parent ignores a child? And what good papa doesn’t quiet the cries of his children? Abba, our papa cares. He’s a good Father.
Bob and I have a question that we ask each other often. That question is… “Is it time to lament?”
You see one night when things looked bleak, when we didn’t think we could go another step and we were tired of being strong, I said, “Christians have lost the art of lamenting. We need to lament. It’s not an option. It’s a necessity.”
So lament we did. Lying in bed we cried, cried out to God, not with fancy words or prayers. No, just with the truth of how we were feeling. And you know what? We fell asleep in the arms of God. And the next day brought peace and answered prayer.
We are looking forward to the end of this storm, this winter that we are in. We are looking forward to seeing all the signs of spring and new life…The crocus’ poking up from beneath the snow, the sun shining brighter, the patches of snow disappearing and the grass greening.
We are looking forward to spring with the hope of being home where we can live out what the medical staff is calling our “new normal.”
(Transplant day is Wednesday, January 13, 2016. Scott’s bone marrow will be harvested that morning and Bob will receive the infusion that afternoon. Thank you, our friends, who have been so faithful in prayer. We love and appreciate each one of you.)